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NuB1’s – The Way Station, End of an Era

Sunday, July 17th, 2011

I was looking at the main page of my website, Christianmuse.com, and when I came to the bottom of the page I found a small paragraph written. It was an announcement that I finally moved all of my material that I had hosted at tripod.com called NuB1’s – The Waystation, and moved it to a company called Netfirms under the domain name of Christianmuse.com.

The first page I ever created on the Internet was my homepage for NuB-1s – The Waystation. That was back in July of 1998. I had hopes of creating a special little site on the web that would open the door for people to enter into ministry and also a place for people to receive ministry without judgment. Sadly, it never became what I had envisioned. Oh I had plenty of links out there and quite a few number of contact points but it never bore fruit. The vision never died, it just got folded in to a different dream, a different hope.

Last night I did a search of the web to see if there was any evidence, any links remaining, of that first website. You can find NuB1 listed but now it is only listed for sites that use that term as an antibody. A lot of science has gone into NuB1 and there are many pages on the web. The only place on the Internet that doesn’t use NuB1 as the short form for an antibody is found on my new site, at the bottom of the page, as an indicator that the site is now here. Today, it is more a memorial to that first attempt to bring God’s love and God’s word to the net.

This small personal era is over, yet the dream still exists in a small corner of my heart. Perhaps someday, someway, God’s Spirit will visit me and what is hidden in the heart, like a little seed, will once again begin to grow and the two edged ministry will come to light. I am reminded of that Scripture, “unless a seed die, it cannot bear fruit.” Whether hope or wishful thinking, I watch the ground and wait.

New Computer… Argh!!!!

Friday, July 8th, 2011

So Linda and I bought a brand-new computer about two weeks ago. And we picked it up at the beginning of the week. And it has been an agonizing and frustrating experience. The monitor would not work because we have the wrong cable. Three days later we finally get the cable. Then we find out the speakers will not work. Another day and a half of teeth grinding. And then we come to the point of loading new programs, well not new ones, but ones that I have loaded on my previous computer. Now I find that they can’t load, they can’t run, they can’t do anything. So what is a guy to do? The good news, is that at least some of the newer programs work.

Here is where it gets interesting. I also have to set up all the old e-mail accounts and bring them over to the new system. That has been another experience of frustration and grinding of teeth. It appears that all of my e-mail clients that are based at Christianmuse are not functioning. Oh we can get them but we have to use a browser, go online, and work using an inferior program. So I want to apologize to all our friends who have been sending us e-mails and not getting any responses. I am hoping to have this problem resolved soon.

So have patience with us, with me, as I learn how this new Windows 7 program works and how it changes the way I do things. Perhaps, in a month or two, I will begin to think that this is a wonderful computer and a wonderful program. But that certainly is not today.

God bless and have a beautiful weekend.

Why I am not posting? How am I doing?

Monday, May 16th, 2011

A month without a post? That is nothing new, though I am trying to get away from that and post more often. Reason I’m not?

Physically? A new back injury/muscle injury… stops me from walking because of a great deal of pain. An operation, slated and cancelled and slated again and done (took longer than expected before the bleeding stopped). Burns on legs… not healing as well as they should. Sores on feet… not improving and still painful. Sitting at the computer writing/surfing/playing… next to nothing at all… leg goes numb and then quickly becomes too painful to continue. Overall, hasn’t been a very good six weeks.

Spiritually? Doing pretty good. In fact this year has been the best one spiritually than any in the past two decades. Hmm… perhaps the enemy, not being able to get me spiritually, has decided to attack me physically? Now if I could get a word of knowledge about it that would be great.

Mentally? Caught between The Rock and a hard place. Thanks to Jesus I am not overwhelmed by the current difficulties. I do have a lot of empty time that I am having trouble filling with good things. The drugs I am on give me the slightest buzz so that time slips away a little easier/faster than normal.

Tomorrow I will do a post about a book I just finished reading. That will be done between a blood test at one hospital and an MRI at another. For today… it’s about me: the good (spiritually), the bad (mentally, though not that bad) and the ugly (physically).

Good Friday Fish… and Feet to Match

Friday, April 22nd, 2011

Came down the stairs several times during the night to give my body a chance to recover from inactivity. Feet turn an ugly red, blotches appear on the skin, pain (arthritic) dances throughout my feet and legs. Why mention this? On several of the trips downstairs I found a plastic bag sitting on the counter. Covered with a layer of frost making the identification of what manner of meat indiscernible. Throughout the night more visits revealed more of the meat. Finally my feet turn cold and, white with some dark spots in the flesh. What was the meat thawing off to the side? Well that happens to be Salmon sections. What I find interesting is that the salmon frost and colour turned out to be a match to my own feet.

I should have guessed that it was fish. After all, it is Good Friday… not for the fish though… and we are to remember the Lord’s sacrifice on the cross for us. What this has to do with fish has always escaped me. It’s a Catholic thing. I once knew the answer but lost it through the different incarnations of faith in my journey to find God.

So later in the day I worked on the fish and my feet and in the end they looked like a perfect match for each other. I love what the Lord did for us on the special day two thousand years ago. That the Spirit of God raised him up three days and three nights later is always memorable. I would rather have celebrated eating a Seder meal with all its symbolism, instead fish and fries. Doesn’t quite get to me the same way… until in the quiet of the night… the Lord visits with me… and we sup the spiritual meal. Thank God for the day, however you experienced it… for it was your worship. God bless the Sunday morning service and a chance to renew the Good News story once again.

Let’s Play Operation

Friday, April 1st, 2011

Today was the day I went in to get surgery for a bladder stone. Nothing to eat after midnight. Nothing to drink after six in the morning. Go to the hospital hungry and thirsty. Get changed into the official garb. Lie back and answer a hundred questions for the third time.

Time to put in the intravenous line. A needle into the back of the hand… oops. A needle into the back of the hand… oops. Call over another nurse: a needle into the back of the hand… oops. Try the other hand, needle goes in, a hush comes over the nursing staff, hurray, they struck oil.

Now 9:30, time to sit back and wait for the operating room to open up at 10:30… 11:30… Wife wakes me up for my snoring is interfering with the electronics… 12:00… 12:30… Ah, here comes the doctor, “sorry Mr. Raymond, we have to postpone your operation for another day.”

Hmm… fully prayed up by friends and family and when the time comes there is no dance. So, grab something to drink, swallow some painkillers, eat a sandwich and let out an enormous burp that echoed down the hallways of the hospital. Got dressed and went home.

Should have guessed, April 1st, April Fools Day.

So much fun I think I will do this again… soon.

ps: My thanks to all those who prayed for me.

Snow Day

Wednesday, February 2nd, 2011

Sounds like all I had to do today was stay at home, sit by a cozy fire, relax in my easy chair with a hot cocoa in my hand. Not! A snow day for me is something that I dread. A blizzard no less. I can feel my back muscles stiffen in anticipation of the work to be done.

First, I like to pray before the storm gets to my house. You never know, God might have pity on this disabled frame of mine. Actually, they were saying 30 to 40 centimeters of snow to fall. God listens! I got less than half of that in my neighbourhood. Still, that is a significant amount of snow.

What makes it hard is that the snowplows come down Cannon and like to plow two lanes of roadway snow onto my meager little sidewalk. Five inches of loose snow ends up being 20 inches of packed snow and ice. Fortunately I survived. Then comes the walk to where we park the car. Again, about six inches but all of it loose. Quickly done, though having no place to throw the snow can be a challenge sometimes.

So I’m done? No! The plows come again, specially down the side street just before Linda comes home. Clean it up, again. Linda comes home I tell her to park across the street. I’ll park the car later. Hmmm… not before the plow comes down that side street again. Legs quivering and back shot, I use the back end of the car as a plow to get in. I’ll leave it for the next day.

The only thing that makes me feel good about the day? They were calling for a lot more snow than I got. For that I am thankful. Couldn’t have coped if God didn’t smile on my request.

One Year Passes and Another Begins

Saturday, January 1st, 2011

I was wondering how to open this year’s first post. Should I simply write Happy New Year with balloon fonts? Perhaps draw the New Year baby coming onto the scene? It did not seem an appropriate message for the time. Actually it is… but not for me. A scripture popped into my head. Checking on it found it to be an appropriate response to last year’s dilemmas and tests. It also speaks to faith in the year to come. A purpose! A destiny? So I will share it with you:

Philippians 3:13 Brethren, I do not count myself to have apprehended; but one thing I do, forgetting those things which are behind and reaching forward to those things which are ahead, 14 I press toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus.

The Holy Bible, New King James Version, (Nashville, Tennessee: Thomas Nelson, Inc.) 1982.

May your journey this year bring you ever closer to the prize as you press toward your goal and calling this year.

Have a “Blessed New Year!”

My First Car

Saturday, December 18th, 2010

I remember a time when I was two, about to turn three. I was sitting in my red car. The old type with the back and forth power peddles. When I pumped my plump little legs I could achieve a blistering pace. Almost, almost I could keep up with my dad walking down the street. Oh, blistering pace? If I kept it up my heels would blister. I was always striving to achieve a new land speed record. Never quite making it.

Then one day I equipped my car with a kinetic initiator drive. Wow! Such speed! Of course this kinetic initiator drive, K.I.D. for short, was my best friend and neighbour Ernest Greenwald. He would get behind my little red car and when I said go he would unleash massive power. The peddles by my feet would rattle so fast I would have to keep my feet off of them. I traveled for three hot rods. (For those of you not brought up in with the imperial measurement system that’s about fifteen meters in length.) An impressive distance for a drag race.

driving my first little car aided by a friend

Vrooommm!

Of course to be fair we would swap positions so both of us could share the thrill and excitement of high speed racing. Yup, white knuckled driving as we accelerated to almost three miles per hour. Again, that would be five kilometers per hour for the imperially challenged. Simple pleasures for simple times. It also was good practice for my first real car that needed a really big K.I.D. to push start the car.

Now I am older and drive a much better car. Yet sometimes I long for my first love. It just seemed to be so much grander.

Depression = Inertia

Friday, December 10th, 2010

Life is like physics!

My body at rest…

tends to stay at rest unless acted upon by an equal and opposite force. My God (who is greater than my circumstance) and my wife (who is greater than me) 🙂

My body in motion…

tends to stay in motion unless acted upon by an equal and opposite force. Satan (who is not that great) and my life circumstance (which is too often grating) 🙁

Need more 🙂 and less 🙁

The Life Recovery Bible

Tuesday, May 18th, 2010

In our Recovery Group we use “The Life Recovery Bible” for our study purposes. I just finished reading through the biblical text. It uses a copy of the “New Living Translation.” It is from Tyndale House Publishers, Inc. Of course if you were to go out and buy a copy today it will use a different translation, though I don’t know the version at this time.

It is a special book designed for twelve step programs. Besides a bible it also has copious amounts of comments at the bottom of the page. Actually there are more comments than biblical text. At the back of the book is a large topical index. What else?

Recovery profiles on the main characters of the bible.
Twelve step devotionals.
Recovery Principle Devotionals.
Serenity Prayer Devotionals.
Recovery Reflections.

Suffice it to say there is so much material it would take a long time to work your way through this book taking the time to do it properly. I may be able to start attending the group out of “Crossfire Assembly” on King St W in Hamilton Ontario.

Now as for the particular translation. I believe it would be a good bible for those who have a grade ten education or better. As with all translations it comes in its own flavour. If it were say, ice cream, something green that tastes minty and has a few crushed nuts sprinkled throughout. Overall it meets its purpose for being an easy read though it does take certain liberties in translation. Of course some would call it a transliteration.

As for a general purpose bible? No, there are more bibles, even “New Living Translations”, that would be better for the average reader. If however you are working in a recovery group… trying to overcome compulsive/obsessive/addictive behaviour… this book is a real gem.